Pulling The Stinger Out
March 13, 2008
I have kind of a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach about writing this, but I’m forging ahead anyway.
When you first start mommyblogging, it’s like dating - you’re on your best behaviour, writing what you think is entertaining in one way or another, whether it be about the delicate balance of being a mother, or mommy guilt, or funny things your toddler said. People relate to what you’re putting out there, and they comment. You feel the same way and comment back on their blog. At least, that’s how it was for me when I started in 2005. (My archives will be put up here when I get some time to do it.)
It’s a wonderful community and I would be lost without it some days.
Then you get a little more comfortable, maybe meet some other mommybloggers, think you you know them, but the truth is, they are just putting their best side out there too. That’s okay though, it’s natural for us to do this, I think. We want readers and comments, after all. We want people to like us and care about us the same way we care about them. Most people are good, after all, and these women are trustworthy and just as scared and doubtful about their decisions as you are.
For me, that “best behaviour” all changed last year when I had some very serious problems going on the wiring of my brain. For those who don’t know, I blogged my way through it, putting the ugliest of me out there and making myself vulnerable to criticism and debate, while admittedly thriving on the supportive comments. In most cases, those comments and emails were sincere and sweet. I’m very grateful to have really good friends who truly were there for me through that awful period of my life, both online and offline. I will never forget the generosity of some of the hearts out there. You know who you are.
Then there were also the people who I thought were my friends, and it’s now coming to surface that what I had suspicions about originally, really was the truth - there were people who thought my breakdown was entertainment. Hilarious, even. This truth about certain people was something I brushed off because a) I figured I was being paranoid; and b) I couldn’t understand why anyone would think that the breakdown of a fellow mommyblogger would be funny.
Would it be funny if I had continued down that path? Ended up in the hospital? Do you think it’s funny that I wanted to die? Do you think it’s funny that had I not opened up to my husband and doctor, that I might have? I imagine you rolling your eyes here. It’s who you are, brushing off serious things in lieu of being part of the cool bunch of moms you think you are. From the outside, you sure look happy. The mere fact that you think a mother’s nervous breakdown is funny tells me you’re miserable and pathetic. Perhaps you’re the one who needs help now.
Now that I’m really back, better than ever, loving life and really taking care of myself, I’m seeing the true colours of people I really thought were friends. People I really believed genuinely cared about me (and who I genuinely cared about) are actually making fun of the fact that I’m better. Saying that I’m damaged and they’re waiting for me to ‘lose it’ again.
Wow.
It hurts. A lot.
Stings.
The tears are burning behind my eyes, and I feel betrayed.
Sadly, the emails and comments that have been forwarded to me regarding how certain people really feel about me, only confirms what I believed to be true in most cases. Except for one. One person who I really thought was a sweet, genuine, lovely person turned out to be the biggest fake of them all. She can’t stand me. She sure had fun with me when we met though. Totally weird. Totally wrong.
Ouch.
Oh I know I shouldn’t care what people think, and I sure don’t want fake friends like that. It’s just funny that once I really got to know what a certain group were like, I didn’t want to “mommydate” them anymore.
To those who have blogged about supporting your fellow moms, and who have done so through words that you meant, and actions you followed through on..without doing so in order to generate traffic… Those of you who have sent private emails of support to another mom, who have donated money/time/goods to moms in need without saying one word about it on your blog, those who truly care about each other… You are true heroes. True friends. True members of this community.
Thank God for real people who aren’t all about looks, perfection, fashion, status, money, Bree-Van-De-Camp-Martha-Stewart bullshit.
I don’t live in Stepford and sometimes I say Fuck.
Sometimes I sing loud songs with my kids and sometimes I yell at my kids for stupid things.
Sometimes I let the answering machine take the calls even though I’m right here and sometimes I go more than 8 weeks without a haircut.
Sometimes I wear pajamas all day and sometimes I wear longjohns and go sledding with my children.
Sometimes I cry over silly things and sometimes I blog an entry and delete it.
So to the fake, pathetic mommybloggers that have been swarming around this hive waiting on some action, all the while buzzing about how much you dislike me? You with your snippy answers and your forked tongue poking through that angelic smile? You who have never once blogged about supporting your fellow mom friends and meant it from your heart?
Sometimes you do all those things too. Good day, ladies.
March 13th, 2008 at 12:37 am
I’m just foaming at the mouth here about this.
I can’t imagine someone watching what you went through and being entertained. I can’t imagine anyone thinking that kind of crap is funny.
And how DARE someone use your vulnerability against you!
(that is being said in a very menacing tone)
Karen, I have to admit that I’m naive. Whenever I split my veins (as some people call it) on my blog, I am always surprised when a few people take that openness and twist it into something ugly and cruel.
I guess the blogging community is no different than the real world. Some people suck.
But the rest of us? We are awesome.
You come sit over here by us, sweetheart.
Miss Britt’s last blog post..My readers, you know me so well….
March 13th, 2008 at 1:12 am
I feel so stupid and naive saying this, but I’m shocked…..I know I shouldn’t be, but I am. it’s hard to believe that some could be so…so….I don’t even know what the word should be. I’m sorry that you’ve been hurt for being open. It really doesn’t make you feel safe to keep being open and yet that’s what we should be doing…being open and making this world a place for our friends and kids to be open and honest…and yet this stuff keeps happening and it makes you feel like you should be fake and pretend…not good….not good at all.
I’m sorry! Big Hugs!
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March 13th, 2008 at 1:16 am
But the truth is, it’s part of who I am, how I’ve grown and gotten through a horrible part of my life. I’ve learned so much about myself, my husband and things that are so much more important than people who have been laughing behind my back. It’s liberating to finally say it because I HAVE been holding back on this site.
No more holding back though Patti, no more.
Thanks for stopping by.
Britt - calm down… they aren’t worth it. xoxo
March 13th, 2008 at 1:21 am
Mommyblogging sounds a lot like what used to be the PTA….some women really being awesome and there for each other while others are backstabbers, gossip whores and hate mongers. The truth about those women who thought your “breakdown” was funny is that they will never be happy with who they are and probably dislike themselves quite a bit. There is no reason to take pleasure in someone else’s shortcomings and/or dark times unless you are incapable of finding inner happiness.
So they’re sad.
So they’re pathetic.
So they’re really fake people.
Who wants them anyway? You have people out here..like me…who will love and respect you no matter what because some of us don’t want to be your friend for what we perceive you to be or what you can do for us. We’re friends with you because your flaws and your good parts make you one amazing and human chick.
Ride or die, bitches…ride or die!
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March 13th, 2008 at 1:41 am
Yes, I remember your struggles last year. We talked a few times, in fact. People that think that shit is funny are far more fucked in the head than me. And that’s saying something.
Cannot imagine it. Hope they never struggle similarly. They’ll be screwed.
Karl’s last blog post..Bow Down Before the One You Serve
March 13th, 2008 at 1:56 am
Good for you, Karen! You’re calling it what it is, and getting that garbage out of your life. I was not around these parts last year and do not know what you went through, but from what you said in this entry about it I cannot imagine any feeling person thinking that was funny, or done for effect, or watching and waiting for another breakdown. That is SICK.
I agree, most people are good and want to be supportive and helpful to others. It sure hurts when they turn out not to be what they seem, but I believe that for every one of those types there are many, MANY more who are truly good people.
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March 13th, 2008 at 2:06 am
I am confused as to why someone would think that your nervous breakdown was funny. That is the farthest thing from entertainment.
Sounds like you are strong enough to deal with it now, though.
Kudos to you for writing this!!!!
Also: May that b-word rot in Stepford-hell.
Mrs. F’s last blog post..I was born in 1978
March 13th, 2008 at 3:04 am
Karen, I’m horrified that people would be entertained by your problems. Not shocked. Just saddened. And frightened because it could happen to any of us.
I would like to think that the majority of the people you have come to know through blogging and who have come to know you didn’t feel that way; that there were just a few rotten apples.
Donna’s last blog post..15 Years
March 13th, 2008 at 6:25 am
Karen, one of my favorite mottos is, “If only we lived in a perfect world.” Because let me tell you, those people who think they do are the ones who are really screwed up. I’m sorry you are seeing how ugly people like that can be.
I’ve never been afraid to post my struggles…I think it just scares people to begin with
Hang in there, you know the people you can rely on.
Lisa’s last blog post..Bees With Honey
March 13th, 2008 at 7:32 am
It is unconscionable to know that such ignorant people like you’ve described still exist in this world.
Thankfully, you are strong enough to see people for what they are worth and to understand that their demonstrated pettiness is nothing more than the highest sense of complete ignorance.
But aside from all that, the fact that anyone would take your heartbreak and sorrow and use it for entertainment fodder just makes me want to vomit.
I’ve been reading you for well over a year. When your life struggles began my heart hurt for you. And I’m a total stranger to you. I can’t even imagine taking your struggles and belittling you in such a horrible, horrible way.
Let them go. If you can, let the pain of the injustice to your soul and your psyche. I say Fuck ‘Em. And remember, what goes around will sometime come around to them.
Virtual hugs. No, virtual MEGA hugs.
Mattie’s last blog post..Male vs. Female Therapists
March 13th, 2008 at 8:05 am
I am heartbroken for you Karen. I remember well what you were going through and I am shocked that “people” would pretend to be friends just to wait for the other shoe to drop.
I am so mad and hurt for you.
You’re a strong and beautiful woman, mother and friend. You deserve better. Don’t let these monsters bring you down.
sam’s last blog post..For Your Editing Pleasure
March 13th, 2008 at 8:33 am
It amazes me that this kind of stuff happens and that people can suck so much. We do this to get away from the mean PTA mom mentality, not to get more of it. Take comfort in the fact that many more people support you than not. The haters can suck it.
Gina’s last blog post..How NOT to Get the Job
March 13th, 2008 at 10:04 am
fuck them.
that’s all i have to say about that.
you are a rockstar and it is AWFUL to know that there are assholes out there who found what you were going through to be entertaining. that might be the saddest thing i ever heard.
ali’s last blog post..she CAN be bribed?and i would make a good roommate?i swear?
March 13th, 2008 at 10:11 am
People, as a general rule, are schmucks. I second what Ali says; ‘fuck em.’
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March 13th, 2008 at 10:26 am
Karl - you have always been a good friend - especially through that time. Thank you.
Violet - yes there are many wonderful people I have met through blogging!
MrsF - I don’t wish harm to them, really. They just need help if they think this is funny.
Donna - yes, just a few.
Lisa - don’t I know it! I have long admired your honesty about your struggles - you are an amazing person and I’m proud to call you my friend.
Mattie - Thank you.
Sam - I’m trying not to. It’s the one person that has me baffled, that’s all. Thanks for always being there for me too.
Gina - it is very PTA I think (I’ve been there too years ago at my oldest’s school) and OY.
Ali - I’m trying to say “fuck ‘em.” I really am.
Kemp - I don’t people all people are schmucks - most have good intentions I think. We all make mistakes. Some of us never grow up though and that makes me crazy.
Anyway, it’s a new day and I have a cute blog post to put up. Thanks guys - THIS is why I love the blogging community!
March 13th, 2008 at 10:31 am
Man, that’s shitty.
Of course, I’ve never even seen you as a mommyblogger - I associate a negative connotation with them because of the generally mundane nature of their posts, and have never seen your posts as mundane.
If you want, I can go start being my normal crude leering obnoxious self on each and every one of their blogs until they shut their blogs down from the harassment. I’ve done it before - just point me in the right direction!
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March 13th, 2008 at 10:33 am
March 13th, 2008 at 11:12 am
In a way, this entry feels like you’re breathing some fresh air. It’s good. Like you busted through to the other side of something.
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March 13th, 2008 at 11:15 am
March 13th, 2008 at 11:22 am
I love you. You know that. Nobody needs “friends” like that when you are loved by so very many.
XO
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March 13th, 2008 at 12:35 pm
You know that I have been following you for a long time, but I rarely comment. I strongly believe that karma will get them in her own sweet time. The positive thing is you do have a lot of real and honest support out here. It is generally a wonderful community, but just like in real life some of the neighbors just suck.
Vixen’s last blog post..A Quickie
March 13th, 2008 at 12:38 pm
I was going to say “You mean eight months without a haircut isn’t normal???” and then I saw it said weeks. Gawd. Thanks for sharing your most vulnerable moments. I appreciated reading it. You’ll never know how many people you might have encouraged who were never able to come forward and say so. But you encouraged me.
Shannon’s last blog post..dear march
March 13th, 2008 at 12:38 pm
Move on — who needs friends who treat you like that!
Erika Jurney, Plain Jane Mom’s last blog post..You’ve got to be kidding me, it’s only Wednesday?
March 13th, 2008 at 1:15 pm
Oh man, I’ve only started reading you in the last few weeks, but I’m sorry that happened to you, and sorry people can be such assholes. Keep singing fuck in your PJ’s while ignoring the phone, cause I think you’re fabulous! :p
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March 13th, 2008 at 2:06 pm
excellent! its tough. blogging opens you up for all kinds of things, good and bad. and trusting on-line people? very hard. super hard!! have you ever read this woman?
http://boobsinjuriesanddrpepper.blogspot.com/ she is going through some crazy shit right now and sharing it with people. awsome, brings people to tears every day, and she does get some shit for it too. but good for you on calling people on their lame behavior! i’ll rally for yah!!
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March 13th, 2008 at 2:15 pm
This is shocking to me. I’ve been blogging since October 2004 and I’ve always put myself and all my angst out there for the blogging world to see. I knew there were people who probably wouldn’t care but to be mocked like you described.
It makes me want to ask WHO did this to you so that if they are on my blogroll, I can make sure I remove them. I don’t want to read anything from people like that, even if its a about a trainwreck in their own lives.
Sleeping Mommy’s last blog post..Ooo! Shiny!
March 13th, 2008 at 2:35 pm
I am so sorry that has happened to you. I have been on the receiving end of that and it stings like a mother. A group of women that I trusted through my toughest times (mommyboard - go figure) did EXACTLY what you described. Actually, my one and only troll came from that experience.
Those women are less than you, wash your hands of them and don’t look back. They aren’t worth it.
The truth is is that there will always be snarky people out there, they thrive on drama. If they don’t have enough excitement in their own boring lives, they’ll watch yours and enjoy it the whole time. Fuck ‘em, just like so many others have already said.
Natalie’s last blog post..Star-Struck
March 13th, 2008 at 5:07 pm
There is nothing entertaining about a personal crisis. I, for one, am so glad you came out the other end whole and happier.
To the rest? Fuck ‘em.
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March 13th, 2008 at 5:17 pm
I always feel unpopular with mommy bloggers. Maybe I should be happy about that fact.
I love you, and I’m sorry whoever it is is not being kind to you!
I know you aren’t going to share who it is, but I sure hope I am not trusting someone who was not nice to you!
tori’s last blog post..He Won’t Be a Dragon
March 13th, 2008 at 8:10 pm
Hi Karen, I am truly saddened at the treatment you have recieved. I think you are wonderful for being so honest during that difficult time, as a HUGE fan of yours I read what you were going through and thought of you many times while going about my daily life. I am so happy that you have come out of that dark place and wish you best wishes from all the way over here.
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March 13th, 2008 at 9:58 pm
Well I think you’re warped and twisted, and that’s just one (two?) of the reasons I love you so much.
Mean people suck. And karma definitely keeps score. Check it HERE
(Feel free to take and use. I created it myself a few years ago.)
And you know, I’m only a screamy email away when you need a shoulder. I’ll kick ass if you want me to. Just say the word. (HUG)
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March 13th, 2008 at 10:59 pm
Only lately am I beginning to see just how cruel people in the blogging world can be, and I’m shocked by it. I don’t know why; I’m not so stupid to believe that all people are nice or have a conscience. However, I guess that because I put all of that two-faced crap behind me when I left high school, I think that other people have done the same. It saddens me to know that they haven’t, and that they’ve decided to made you the butt of their sick joke. I’ve only known you to be honest on your blogs, and I admire you for that.
Tense Teacher’s last blog post..Good Things
March 13th, 2008 at 11:31 pm
It’s a sad reality isn’t it? No matter where you go you find two-faced bitches. Keep your chin up she’s the one who should feel bad.
Kathleen’s last blog post..internet weirdos
March 14th, 2008 at 8:35 am
I don’t think I was reading a year ago because I’m pretty sure I’d have remembered this. The blog world is very much like the real world only different. There are bitches out there who think they’re something but are snotty stuckup little princesses who believe they above anything really devastating happening in their real lives - or refuse to admit it to anyone. It is easy to fake sincerity on the internet. We have somehow been trained to respond positively to the empty (headed) but perfectly groomed chearleader face - thinking these are the role models we should copy. The mini-Paris’s are poison. Those like Martha Stewart who believe they know how things should be done and tell us all emperialistically, will, like Martha, be shown for what they are eventually. Don’t be surprised at finding snakes in the grass - they will always be there. And if you wait long enough, every single person will let you down. The fact is, as you said, most are good and at least try to be a real friend. I’m guessing that your breakdown probably came a little too close for comfort for some. They had to put some distance between you for fear that they might break down too. I applaud your honesty.
March 14th, 2008 at 9:08 am
I think when reading your blog this time last year, not even knowing you personally, I was concerned and a little uneasy about how much denial you were in at times, and how self-destructive you were becoming. But, not knowing you personally I had nothing constructive to contribute, so I faded away into the woodwork because what else was I going to do?
But god, there’s nothing funny or amusing about it. I’m glad you’re starting to feel more healthy.
March 14th, 2008 at 2:41 pm
I’ve only been reading your site a few days now, and I don’t think I’ve commented before, but all I can say is “wow”.
I don’t know about you, but I didn’t come to the blogosphere for the same drama I can get from the real women in my life. I’m sorry you had to go through a tough time in your life, and then have your recovery somehow darkened by others’ actions.
Keep writing. As Eden Kennedy says, “Writing well is the best revenge.”
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March 14th, 2008 at 2:59 pm
Holy shit, Karen, I had no idea about this, and I’m sickened. There’s nothing funny about crying out for help and going through difficult times.
It would seem that the virtual world functions much like the real world. There are still Mean Girls. But I’ve never encountered them like that. Sheesh.
I’m so sorry you had to find out such painful news. It makes me wonder if someone makes fun of my struggles behind my back? I think you’re taking the right attitude about it, though. You’ve come a long way from last year - your writing just seems happier now, and that makes me happy, too.
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March 14th, 2008 at 5:46 pm
Every where you go, there are going to be people like that. People who put on a huge fake smile and pretend to care, then laugh about it behind your back.
But you are above it, as the words in this post clearly state. Let them snicker, and pretend to be a frigging Stepford wife. Remember how that movie ended? Not so good for the Stepford wives.
It’s always good to know who your real friends are, and we love you.
You’re my hero!
*hugs*
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March 14th, 2008 at 9:21 pm
Ever since I heard this quote, I think it is the perfect way to run a blog:
“I have a policy about honesty and ass-kicking: if you ask for it, I have to let you have it.” Taylor Mali.
I’m just sayin’. Some of those people could use a dose of both.
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March 15th, 2008 at 1:54 am
I haven’t a clue about your past, nor do I want to know, because I like the here and now.
Aren’t we all in various states of flux, adjustment - life?
March 15th, 2008 at 7:36 am
I wouldn’t say it’s primarily a ‘mommy’ thing. It’s often an internet thing. Though I can see how you would assume that since you’ve built this community of mothers then they would and should be there to support you. But sometimes the internet as a whole is a giant asshole.
I would tell you to fuck them, but as a person who has several really close friends on the internet and if any of them fucked me over and hurt me, then I’d be pissed and upset as well.
So this too shall pass.
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March 15th, 2008 at 10:13 am
Vixen - that’s a great way to put it!
Shannon - I HAVE gone 8 months before, trimming myself at home - when i was a new mom both times, there was no time to go and have it done!
Erika - Oh I am, believe me.
Honeybell - thanks!
Zack - thanks for the recommend. I’ll have to check her out.
Sleeping Mommy - I wouldn’t tell if they were on your blogroll. I’d like to think I’m better than that.
Natalie - UGH. Sorry to hear it happened to you. Some people really protect their insecurities on others. How awful.
Mrs. Chicken - thanks so much for your words - that was a really nice thing to say.
Tori - If there’s one thing I’ve learned in the last 12 years, it’s that popularity anywhere is worth jack. It seems some people get popular online and turn into really unlikable people.
J - thank you so much. I know you’ve been here this whole time. xoxoxo
Kris - ha ha…you’re hilarious. I know where to find ya.
TT - thanks for saying that. I’ve been honest this whole time, even when it meant lashing out and being angry. Why is it no one ever accepts a woman’s anger for what it is?
Kathleen - yup, thanks.
Jeannie - you’re totally right. Snakes! On a motherfucking blog!
Wookie - you hit the nail on the head. Denial indeed. I’m glad I pushed through to the other side too.
Candy - Heh. I have two of her shirts.
She’s right.
Christina - if they are (or anyone is) than they are sick too. I think we both just should keep writing how and what we write - obviously there are real people out there who relate to things we go through and stuff. To hell with appearances and bullshit, right?
Sarcastica - ah my wise cousin. I know, I know. I did say I shouldn’t let this bother me. I’m trying to just forget them. but still, ouch.
GREAT QUOTE Jenn. I’ll have to remember that one!
Gorillabuns - yes we are, and I hope that none of these women get hit with the Karma bug, because I can well imagine their perfect worlds would not hold for this kind of fallout.
Heather B. I disagree that sometimes the internet is sometimes a giant asshole. That was the point of the beginning of my post - I have found some amazing friends that would never do this. The internet could certainly use a good enema though. Starting with a certain group of two-faced women.
March 15th, 2008 at 5:32 pm
You know, it’s times like this, when people make jokes out of serious matters and struggles of individuals, that I really wish there was such a thing as a virtual punch. I mean, I realize your whole post is all about not virtual punching people, but I’m just saying. Some folks need a good virtual punch.
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March 15th, 2008 at 8:28 pm
You know, it’s great to know who your real friends are, but it sucks to find out who your real friends are! You’re a million times braver and stronger than anyone small and mean enough to take pleasure from your pain.
Wouldn’t it be great if two-faced people got double the acne??
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March 15th, 2008 at 9:34 pm
I’ve only been reading you for a short time so I had no idea that anything like this had happened. I’m so sorry that some people found your pain funny. Sometimes people just flat out suck. I agree with the person above who said they want to know who these people are so that they can clear them out of their blogroll. I would hate to think I’m wasting time reading someone who can be so nasty.
Jen’s last blog post..I said what now?
March 16th, 2008 at 1:57 am
grrrrr. just … grrrrrrrr.
i read you your old blog. i hurt for you then. i hurt for you now.
some people just suck. plain and simple.
janet’s last blog post..Weekly Winners: March 9-15
March 16th, 2008 at 9:09 am
Wow, I don’t know what is wrong with people. I have never understood why people need to put other people down to make themselves feel better.
8 weeks? Oh honey, that’s nothing.
chris’s last blog post..Don?t Hate Me Because I Am Perfect
March 16th, 2008 at 3:56 pm
Karen, your honesty has always been a thing of beauty. I’ve always admired you. Even in the midst of all that pain.
Some people are so stuck in …middle school. PTA seems like a compliment.
Props for once again telling it like it is. I’m so glad you’re doing better.
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March 17th, 2008 at 7:56 am
Debbie - it’s been a little liberating, actually.
Jen - I’d rather not point fingers. Let King Karma handle it.
Janet - thanks.
Chris - in the past, I’ve been guilty of saying things behind people’s backs (I think we all have). Maybe this is Karma on me? All I can do is try to be a better person now and distance myself from people who are acting this way.
Missy - Thanks for saying that.
March 18th, 2008 at 11:38 am
I’m sorry you’re going through this. I’ve been there and it really, really hurts.
March 19th, 2008 at 12:09 pm
Sometimes it sucks to think that the only way you’re going to see someone’s true colors is to bare your soul in such a personal way. I skirt outside the mommyblogging community because it’s safe here, I like safe. I also really really love the mommybloggers I’ve become close with.
Everything you say can and will be used against you, at some point.
…that’s meant for the people who have hatred in their hearts and type when they should be sitting on their hands.
Leanne’s last blog post..A Week In Photos
March 20th, 2008 at 12:32 am
Mierable people living their miserable little lives. So sad.
Seriously, you need this 78 months along pregnant mommy-blogger go go rough some women up?
April 14th, 2008 at 10:09 am
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April 14th, 2008 at 10:21 am
Wow, I missed this the first time around. I had no idea. I’m truly sorry that someone betrayed you like that but the world is full of small people and small minds. Fuck ‘em all.
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April 14th, 2008 at 11:22 am
Here’s the deal Karen, those people who did that are the ones with the TRUE problems. They are the TRUE head cases. They don’t even see what they did as being wrong. YOU, on the other hand, admitted you were struggling and reached out for help. I’m SO TERRIBLY sorry they were so completely, un-f’ing-believably, GROSSLY mean and horrible. Your only relief may come in knowing that it WILL come back on them, and at least now you know the truth.
Small comfort, that, I know. Your strength and what you learned by coming through your hard times will ALWAYS keep you above the cheap shot, brainless, heartless morons that would try to bring you down.
Hang in there!!!!!