A Love Letter Of Sorts
April 22, 2008
Dear Jenny, Heather, Y, and Christina,
Thank you for helping me to see the light.
I’m not quitting this writing gig. Sure I was leaning heavily toward it, slumped over, defeated. I really thought that I’d said everything I cared to share. I figured no one wanted to hear any more about my efforts to become a healthy person. Part of becoming that healthy person is overcoming the feelings of inadequacy I have been feeling lately.
In fact, it’s going back to how it was. Honest, raw, heartfelt. Things that make me laugh or cry. I gotta get past the fact that some people won’t like me, but some people will and more importantly, some might relate to something I write. Thanks for talking me through it the last week or so.
Love Your Home Girl,
Sugarpanties
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Dear Masta Homie G,
I know I’ve said something to this effect to you in person, but I want you to know just how much I appreciate you pushing me further than I ever thought I could go. I never thought I would be able to run for 46 minutes straight, as I did tonight. I never thought I would be able to run 7K, as I did tonight. I never thought I would deem a core class as easy, and I sure as hell never thought I’d be running in a marathon on a team.
That’s a lot of “nevers.”
You have helped me change my life. There is nothing more satisfying than throwing out all my clothes that have an X on the label. There is nothing better than the feeling I get about 7 minutes into a run, that I can run forever. There is nothing more kick ass than the pour of sweat, the tightening of muscles I didn’t even know I had and learning to love this body for what it can DO, rather than hating it for how it looked. Thank you for being a driving force in my every day.
Love, K-Unit
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Dear Daren,
I know the last few months have been slightly more challenging, what with you arriving home to make dinner as I dash out the door to meet with Homie G. I know it isn’t easy to cook up dinner while watching our kids, and then for you to take the time to bring them outside and toss the football or soccer ball about makes me love you even more.
Your constant encouragement has never wavered through this time and I know I’ve done it for years with you going to hockey 3 nights a week but I still maintain that having me absent during the dinner hour has to be more trouble than having you gone when the kids are nearing bedtime or already tucked in.
Thank you for noticing the little changes, (*pinch* *wink*) for reading up on new foods and recipes you think I might enjoy and benefit from, and for pushing my ass out the door when I would have rather stayed in bed. For all of these things and your unconditional love through everything, thank you. I love you with everything that I am.
Love K
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Dear Dylan and Thomas,
Firstly, I know Mommy has been gone many nights but I do rush back to tuck you in. I appreciate you helping Daddy with dinner, setting the table, unloading and loading the dishwasher and generally being well-behaved while your Daddy takes care of things. I know your Daddy is fully capable of doing all of this, but your good behaviour and pitching in has been noted and we are so very proud of you both.
p.s. Dylan - thanks for running with me. I know you love it, but it sure is nice to have that time with you.
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Dear Sugarpants Readers,
Yes, you. You have been so kind as to leave comments of encouragement and I really appreciate your thoughts. I know we all lead busy lives and sometimes I don’t have time to answer comments via email or leave comments on everyone’s sites. I just want to tell you that I really applaud this community for rallying together in all kinds of situations. I’m proud to be a part of it.
Love Sugarpants
xo
p.s. My feed is wonky. I think since I moved to Bluehost, (which I LOVE), it changed. So it’s here if you want to add me to your reader thingy.
p.p.s. The marathon is in 18 days. I finally set up a thingy so if you want to donate to the Thames Valley Children’s Centre on behalf on the Crazy Stallions (yeah, that’s our team name, shuddap) then you can donate here. Yeah that’s my real last name…shhhh.
Every $5 helps so please don’t feel like you have to go nuts. I set a goal of $1000 - it would be nice to get to that, especially since it’s my first marathon!
UPDATE: HOLY CRAP - WE’RE ALREADY AT 10% of MY GOAL! Thanks to Adam, Britt, Heather and Nicole!
p.p.p.s. I keep typing marathong. Heh.
April 22nd, 2008 at 10:17 pm
I’m so glad you have worked through your funk about blogging and anything else that has had you frustrated. Your perseverence in working out is so inspiring.
Sleeping Mommy’s last blog post..Crockpot Livin’
April 22nd, 2008 at 10:20 pm
I’m proud of you for so many reasons.
You look so happy, healthy and beautiful! I’m glad you’re not quitting. Remember– think of THAT email.
xoxo
Y’s last blog post..‘Cause I gotta have faith faith faith I gotta have faaaaaith.
April 22nd, 2008 at 10:39 pm
You know we are all so proud of you and wha you have accomplished so far……keep on kicking x’s ass…….shmily
April 22nd, 2008 at 10:40 pm
aww, that was such a nice post
btw, LOVE LOVE LOVE your hair colour!
April 22nd, 2008 at 11:17 pm
A marathon!! Ooooooooooh!!! Which one?
(Sorry late to the party.) I did Virginia Beach in March. It’s an amazing experience.
(I’m sure you have more than enough advice to carry you through but if you have any questions please feel free to drop me a line.)
Nat’s last blog post..Excellent!
April 23rd, 2008 at 1:05 am
Keep going. You inspire me! And the picture is damn adorable.
Vixen’s last blog post..Hello and Goodbye
April 23rd, 2008 at 1:12 am
You continue to amaze me and rock my socks off. I’m proud to say I know you. Though it can be somewhat annoying to see how motivated you are, since I’m still a slug.
Karl’s last blog post..Much Bigger Picture
April 23rd, 2008 at 1:43 am
Geez, I didn’t know you were thinking of not blogging anymore - I’m sure glad you got talked out of it! Congratulations on your fabulous accomplishments and continuing embrace of new health for the rest of your life! I know you’re being called an inspiration by everyone and their brother these days, but that’s because you SO ARE! I really have been a little better behaved since reading what you’ve been thinking and realizing and doing to make yourself healthier. I really appreciate you sharing all that you do! And, the new picture is completely adorable. hee hee!
Violet the Verbose’s last blog post..Rotovirus Playground
April 23rd, 2008 at 7:35 am
Look back at your eyes babe. LOOK at your eyes! Sure they are purdy and happy but they look so healthy!
Just think of what you have done for your insides as well. I really need to do this too. Wonder if I can find me a Homie G in Oz, oh and will you send your husband around to watch and feed my kids too?
Kelley’s last blog post..*cough splutter* whiiiiiiiiine & and actual post.
April 23rd, 2008 at 9:17 am
Oh Karen, I’d hate it if you censored your quirkiness. I love you, bumps and bruises and all.
Thanks for giving me some love. It is ALWAYS appreciated.
And dang’it girl, but don’t you look all defiantly beautiful in that shot. Perhaps you’ve got some uglies around you because they are jealous as all get out that they can’t work it like you can!
OMSH’s last blog post..In case you’re ever in India
April 23rd, 2008 at 9:25 am
Okay, I can’t even get into why but this post made me feel at peace with a whole lot of insanity and you’ll never know why but just know that you are heroic to me.
Also, I feel a little betrayed that your last name isn’t really Sugarpants and I’d like you to change it legally. And I’ll change my middle name to “the” and my last name to “Bloggess”. And instead of having an “Esquire ” or a “Sr.” I’ll have them add “,bitch.”
Judge: Please state your full name for the record.
“It’s Jenny the Bloggess, bitch.”
That’s totally going to go over great in court.
Jenny, Bloggess’s last blog post..Puerto Rico, part one: Things I learned in first class
April 23rd, 2008 at 10:26 am
Love the new photo of you! You are doing great and making no excuses, I LOVE that. BTW, every time I type marathon I also type marathong!!!!
lia’s last blog post..Photos from the Weekend
April 23rd, 2008 at 11:37 am
Oh, hon, you know I love you. Just look at that picture of yourself: happy, glowing, healthy, and gorgeous. Now compare that to a picture of yourself from last year, and see all of the amazing progress you’ve made.
I don’t know that there ever is a point to say “I’ve done all I can do” when it comes to making positive changes in your life, so you will always have something to write about. And you have, and will continue to inspire others with your will and determination.
I’m proud of you, and so happy that you will continue to write. And you will kick ass at your first marathon.
Christina’s last blog post..I’m Going For A Walk - Will You Join Me?
April 23rd, 2008 at 11:39 am
Awwwwwwwww.
I’m so glad you’re not going anywhere.
Here’s to reaching your goal!
Miss Britt’s last blog post..But we won’t call it Rape
April 23rd, 2008 at 1:46 pm
Dear Sugarpanties,
I am so happy to know that you are staying because you complete me.
Regards,
Hillypants
Hilly’s last blog post..Get Off The Cross, We Need The Wood…..
April 23rd, 2008 at 10:14 pm
Dear Karen,
I am so happy that you are finally happy. You look beautiful and even though you do a million things a day you are always there when I need you.
I hope you never quit, but if you do I’ll still be your friend.
Love,
Sarah
Sarah, Goon Squad Sarah’s last blog post..Little Miss Dark Vader
April 23rd, 2008 at 11:29 pm
I want a marathong.
Go Karen!
carmen’s last blog post..Mommy Subversion
April 30th, 2008 at 3:18 pm
I’m so glad you didn’t quit.
Had you quit I would not have met you.
Angela’s last blog post..Obama was for Wright before he was against him